Becoming a conscious creator

I started my LLC, Conscious Creators, nearly two years ago. I had just finished my studies in Clinical Hypnotherapy, Transformational Life Coaching, and Aromatherapy and I was on a mission to change the world. I was recently transformed and wanted to share the magnificence of emotional healing with people just like me who were struggling in their lives and relationships.

I gave it a shot, I won’t even say I gave it my best shot but I failed and I failed fast and though I’d heard the saying, “fail faster”, when it happened, I felt like a failure. I didn’t want to go through that again. I thought to myself, I’ve tried and I’m just not cut out for this entrepreneur stuff, on top of which, I’d spent so much on quick fix schemes, many of which I feel certain are aimed at desperate new entrepreneurs who want to learn to do it right and have it all right now, that I’d spent myself into bankruptcy.

So I was done and I was miserable, again. This lasted for a couple months and I needed to go through that muck and then I was ready to try again but this time on my own terms, without a crutch. The attraction to shiny promises of success just didn’t hold the same power over me that they once had. I had learned my lesson.

This is the key to transformation, learning from life’s abundant lessons. But it’s a choice, to evolve or revolve.

The very thing I wanted to help other people achieve was the thing I saw myself shrinking away from, consciously creating the life and livelihood I desired. I was shrinking away because of fear and allowing defeat to define me. The decision to pick myself up was not conscious at first, it was fed by a knowing deep within me that I could not give up on myself. Despite my ups and downs and deeper downs, self-defeat was never a place I lingered in for too long. I’m not comfortable with mediocrity or self-pity or feeling dissatisfied. Once I became consciously aware of the discomfort, then I decided to take action.

That action was to start blogging and to take it slow and really figure out what I wanted out of life and how I wanted to make an impact. Once the decision had been made, opportunities began presenting themselves and all I had to do was say Yes. The first yes came in the form of Kyle Cease’s 2-day Evolving Out Loud seminar where The Wandering Lesbian was born. The second Yes came in the form of Natalie Sisson’s 10-day blog challenge that I finished yesterday.

I don’t know what more is coming but I know there is more coming and as long as I stay focused on being a conscious creator, opportunities will present themselves to me in abundance.

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