Emotional Health

Speaking My Truth #7

I am okay, safe, and worthy.

“If I feel like nothing without you, I have a lot of work to do on myself!” -Wendyne Limber

That sentence really struck me as I did today’s reading recalling the tension I felt in previous relationships, logically knowing when it was time to let go but being unable to because I only felt okay when I was with someone. When I was alone, I was depressed and directionless. I had a savior complex, one that worked both ways in that I felt powerful enough to save someone else and was also in need of saving. My feeling was if we could save each other, we wouldn’t need anything or anyone else.

So desperate was I to live that role that I would do anything to keep my partner, even if that meant tossing aside my values. I don’t drink but I started drinking for a girlfriend who thought I was boring and felt that if only I would drink, I would open up more and be more fun. It was fun, for about a week but I couldn’t sustain it, I didn’t want to and so she ended it.

I begged her to take me back promising to change, to be more fun, and she did but it was a mistake and we both knew it and spent another year in hell.

Write YOUR OWN NEW COMMITMENT to your partner or some person you are in relationship with. What do you really want?

I am not in a relationship currently but know what I want of a future partner and that is a conscious communicator and emotionally healthy being. This is who I’ve committed to being and want no less from a partner.

A conscious communicator shares themselves fully and is both powerful and vulnerable. Their thoughts, feelings, ideas, concerns, and passions are expressed with an intention to grow as an individual and to grow closer in the relationship. They speak and respond with loving kindness for connection and with compassion rather than judgment and blame.

An emotionally healthy being follows their inner guidance and takes responsibility for their feelings, reactions, and path in life. They do not rely on someone else to fulfill their emotional needs, to save, fix or protect them. They actively and consistently work to understand themselves, recognizing their triggers and taking action to resolve them.


 

This concludes my series on Speaking My Truth. The course I’m taking, Intimacy Without Responsibility goes for 7 weeks but I felt this series a very important piece in cultivating healthy relationships. I hope you enjoyed learning more about me and hope you learned something about yourself as well. If you’d like to take the course yourself, you can find the details here.

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4 comments on “Speaking My Truth #7

  1. Laura, stating what you want as opposed to focusing on what you don’t want is the way to attract the things you desire. I am looking forward to reading your realisations along your journey. Love to you, Alex 🙂

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  2. Sorry Nadia, I said Laura in my previous comment! I was speaking to my friend on the phone just before reading your post! 🙂

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  3. Nadia,
    Upon reading your blog/ your truth, I felt encouraged and hopeful that I have finally found and am experiencing this today. To quote you “a conscious communicator, powerful AND vulnerable”, could the Universe be any more amazing when two people such as you describe find each other…..there is nothing more profound and beautiful and proof that it really can happen.
    Thank you for your truth and your transparency. I know you will find this and most likely have already, since the Universe acts with swiftness upon its urging.
    Thank you for sharing!

    Dani

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